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The Misadventures of Bethitis

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Birthday shit.
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My birthday is Thanksgiving. Apparently, the day after, some fucked up shit is going to occur. I'm just sayin'.

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Well, we partially won. Our president will do a great job.
Thanks to everyone who did their part.

I am saddened, however, at the bigotry from people in Florida and California. Just saddened that we are taking a step backwards in time. Saddened that people can't accept the love of others that are different from them. We've come a long way and this was a step backwards. I don't understand it. They didn't want to take anything away from anyone else. They just wanted to be treated the same as everyone else. I really don't understand it.

Peace out to everyone. Just have a great day today.

No bitterness, no negativity, no hatred, no bigotry. Even if it's just for today. It will make you FEEL GOOD and it will bring a smile to someone else's face.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

To my Florida friends, and anyone facing a bill like this.
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I know that by posting this, I'm probably preaching to the choir, because I'm pretty sure I'm not associated with any bigots on LJ. But I'll post it anyways.

When you're going to vote, please consider that many say you can judge the character of a country by how it treats its minorities. Amendment 2 (a Florida law banning gay marriage) promotes discrimination. Regardless of your personal beliefs, bigotry is wrong and will lead to a further divided nation. And you never know when you and your group of people may end up on the other side of things.


Dont' like gay marriage? Dont' marry someone of the same sex.

But keep your nose out of it, and if you are that insecure in your marriage that you feel like gay marriage would somehow invalidate what YOU have, then I don't think you understand the basis of marriage (love) anyways.


Have a lovely day.



lulz, I couldn't resist.
they are the most rockin' celeb couple ever.

Heh
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Well after visiting with my mom last night I went to Kau's with the group. Jessica, Adam, Damon, Kyle, Ashley and Bryan all dressed up as Tetris blocks. Everyone in that bar had costumes on except Marcus and I --- we're badasses, you know. But the real reason I didn't have a costume was because I'd just come from a wedding and then my mom's. I didn't even know I was going anywhere. Anyhow, mayhem ensued, and our group won second (or third or something) prize in the costume contest. Some kid dressed as Michael Phelps won, lol.

Anyways, it was insane how many 18-20 year olds there were there - I'd say 95% of the people in the bar were underage. And it was PACKED. Three times as packed as I've ever seen it. It took me fifteen minutes just to get from the bar to the back room because I had to cross the drunken-teenager-filled dance floor. I wish my phone's camera didn't have such a bright and blindingly annoying flash on it because I wanted to take pictures of all the most ridiculous costumes and kind of put it together.

It would have been amusing, to say the least.

Tonight there's some sort of party, I'm told. Once again I don't have a costume. It's completely out of character for me because typically, I go insane around Halloween. It's my favourite holiday. I'm still halfway insane this year, just not as stylin'.

Ah well!

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Amber got married today, and it was a beautiful wedding!

Congratulations Mr. and Mrs. Beaugrand!

I love you both!!!!!!






P.S. Right now I'm visiting at my mom's house. Some kids came up to the door banging on it a million times and ringing the doorbell a crapload of times. When I didn't answer the door, some lady screamed, "Turn your damn porch light off then!"

Fuck you, bitch. I don't have to do SHIT to my house --- it's YOUR children who are trespassing on my mom's property, not me. Get fucked.

Breeders are so disgusting.

Sick.
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Been sick since Friday night. Can't keep any foods down. Can barely keep any liquids down. Fever, body ache, etc. I'm sure it's the flu. Went to the doctor Monday morning and it's sad to know that I don't even know if my insurance will cover that tiny little visit or if I'll have to pay $300 for it.
Been out of work since Sunday and also out of school. Still puking today but I'm going to attempt to go back to work because I don't want to get in trouble/get fired/get blacklisted/etc.

I am fucking miserable.

Hmm. Thoughts.
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Really and truly, I don't think that I'll ever completely achieve satisfaction in my life if I never publish my novel series. I do believe that. But in the meantime, I want to start doing more things to just... GET more out of life. To be more satisfied. There's so much bitterness in me, and I just want to get it out of me.

First , I know that I get angry too easily. I've been told by enough people - my parents, Chad, my friends - that I do. And I know that I do. And a lot of it, I think, can be avoided just by changing the state of mind that I'm in. I remember in August, how I felt. That's when I did so well at work. I had this... this clear state of mind, it was just, I was so completely excited because of the change at work, to be away from people that I truly couldn't stand, and to be among people that I felt actually respected me. And so I was kind and friendly and I had a fantastic month. But then I got worn out, because of other things going on in my life, and the happiness just sort of went away.

I remember last February, after the most traumatic moments of my life - that I still won't talk about anymore, and won't for awhile - I had to keep my head up every day and I had to repeat to myself over and over again that I was going to feel good no matter what. And eventually I did, and I guess what I'm trying to say is that there was a kind of warmth in that and I want to get back to that. So in that respect, I just want to get back to being the kind person that I know I can be. And I think that will ease a lot of the anger that I have.

Second, I need a career change. Badly. I like Alltel, but I can't see it being fulfilling at all down the line - hell, it's not even fulfilling right now. I LIKE it, but it is not fulfilling. And yes, I'd love to be a full-time author, but until that happens, I need to pay the bills. And so I've looked into things at school and whatnot, and thought about the career that I planned to eventually have as a college professor.

I dont' want that. Period. I do not want to be a professor. I don't want to teach. I've realized that it's not for me. And certainly not something like Sociology, which is something that I believed in. But it's too idealistic for me. It's just not realistic. Lately, I've been leaning more towards science - specifically, earth science. It's just interested me so much and there are so many jobs in that field, interesting jobs, well-paying jobs. And it made me think about how I needed a master's degree to teach college, and the thought of being in it for that long was really overwhelming me. If I can do a more interesting job that only requires a bachelor's degree, then that's what I want to do. I feel like I really enjoy the subject. I love to travel and I love discovering new things and analyzing things and, believe it or not, being outdoors. (I just don't get to do the latter that much!)

Beth the geologist. It has a nice ring to it, doesn't it?

Now, the trick is pulling it off. Staying strong in school, in work (for now), in friendships, in life! The trick is to stay happy. I believe in myself and my own ability to do so, and I really think I'm onto something here. :)

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And, I was right.

Sarah Palin = failure.

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Cannot wait for the VP debate to see Sarah Palin's EPIC FAIL.

Writing.
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Sometimes I get so fed up with this writing business. I've been working on my series for ten years now, and I still don't have anything that could be published. In all honesty, I probably won't for at least another year and a half. Sometimes it gets so disheartening. I don't have any contacts in the writing world. I don't know exactly what it is I need to do or where I need to go. I guess at this point I just need to FINALLY finish the first novel and then go from there. I guess.

I need more friends that enjoy these type of things. I need friends who are going to be supportive and read what I write. I need people to help me edit. People who are interested and want to help me succeed. A little group of people to WANT TO READ what I have. And I don't really feel like I have that support group right now.

It's just, so many people want to make this their career, just as I do. And it's scary, you know? Only a few of us will make it. It just seems so unfair, because I don't even know how the hell I'm going to get started.

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